All posts for the month December, 2012

If there’s something you want, Tatiana, and you’re afraid to ask, blink three times quick.

Published December 16, 2012 by 51percentawesome

Why are you batting your lashes at me? he says.

I stare up at him, mute.

I’m falling for you, and I’m not ready, he says. You deserve better, he says.

I know.

If only I had a dollar for every time I heard that. And I’m finally cluing onto what the fuck is going on here.

The last one said he didn’t want to be trapped in a relationship. Me neither.

I don’t know how to measure what I think you might be worth, so I just give you everything, and hope you reciprocate. Left lying on the floor mid afternoon, not upset, just… numb. Exhausted. Empty. Mute.

Be alone, they whisper.



Published December 5, 2012 by 51percentawesome

My stomach knots, my heart pounds. Something is wrong.

I wake early, from disturbed dreams. My thoughts circle. I can’t concentrate on the things I need to do. I miss you.

My goals converge on one point. I listen to the words coming out of my mouth, and curse each time I say your name. I want to be with you.

Its time for you to go, my heart drops. I linger, wishing I was more in control. My normal joys are dulled. I love you.